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Current status: Doing a 2000-word assignment.

Current mood: Procrastinating and distracted

Current thought state: Panicing. And in need of a drink (non-alcoholic, of course).

This is a Wordle.net visual text representation of commonly used words from my blog. I found the link on a BBC News article and thought it looked interesting. I'm intrigued as to why the word 'door' and 'hair' is so prominent. Hmm.

• My room is dangerously messy. To the point of needing environmental control to come in and declare it unfit for living in
• My annual leave from uni is in less than two weeks, and I shall spend all some of it sleeping
• It sucks having no money and using public transport (if I have to be face to face with someone's armpit one more time...)
• I detestly hate whoever nicked my MP3 player and didn't bother to hand it in to lost property at the LRC or uni reception. You suck.
• My spending spree on Amazon.co.uk must stop before I run out of money (meh, too late) and storage space for books
• Swine flu hasn't reached me. Yet.
• I've developed a perverse enjoyment from giving people intramuscular injections during my placement :S
• Laziness and 'not being bothered' has prevailed over putting make-up on everyday
• My hamster is able to stick his foot in his ear and scratch inside. This makes me coo like crazy.

The end.

Good grief, I passed the assignment that was either gonna let me continue with my studies or kick me out of uni...

I'm happy beyond belief and I wish there was someone with me right now to celebrate and high-five with. :D

I'm going through a Green Wing moment again...I had hair extensions plaited by mum last year so that I could give my hair a break and so it would grow again. Anyway, went to get my hair done on Saturday and my hair is long...I loves it, and everytime I put my hair into a ponytail I call it a squirrel...in reference to the character Sue White dressing up as one and later calling her own ponytail a squirrel.

This has now led to me wanting to re-watch my whole boxset again, which I'd love to but can't because

a) it's study week and I haven't had time to study yet >.< (really need to do so before I start placement next week)
b) I have books I'd love to immerse myself in beforehand
c) I need to clean my room and start packing my clothes in the wardrobe instead of dumping them on the floor :|

But, I have decided to buy the soundtrack to GW, and maybe at the weekend if I can be bothered, I'll make icons. PSP and Animation Shop are beckoning to me despite having nothing to do with uni.

Aaaand I was reminded of Oliver and Company, the Disney film from 1988. I remember my mum buying me a VHS of it when I was at primary school and was devastated when the tape broke after only watching it a few times. I barely remember it, but I do remember throughly enjoying it. :)

Gah, I'm so excited by my books too, I'm sure I'll need a proper bookshelf soon. I only seem to have time to read when I'm on my way to uni and if I'm on a break, but I definitely want to get started on:

~ Double Cross by Malorie Blackman
~ Lucy's Monster by Rebecca Lee Royale (which I've wanted to get my hands on since 2006/2007)
~ and Eleven Terrible Months by Royale again (which I only ordered cos of the positive reviews on Amazon)

I must stop visiting Amazon and Play.com, they're killing my bank account. :(


PS: The whole scenario with the actress Natasha Richardson is so tragic. It's sad to only realise this when something terrible happens, but like, it totally puts it into perspective how delicate and fragile life is. :(

"So, I've lived in the same flat for 17 years, and there's a lot of memories, including this odd door. Behind the door is the boiler thing and where me and my mum can turn the heater/hot water on. When I was about 5 or something, I found this big can of white paint in the kitchen and starting playing with it. Mum came in and rather than stop me from painting myself white, she lay some newspaper down on the floor and just let me carry on. I presume she thought I was sensible enough to not eat the paint!

When I was nearly done, I walked over to the door and started smearing the paint from my hands onto the door. The pink lipstick writing with me and my mum's name came a few years later, and other bits on the door were added, I guess, as some sort of weird longitudinal art project. :P

I barely notice this door as it just fades into the background and I'm used to it; I really only 'remembered' it because I was trying to figure out what to take a picture of. Though if we ever move, I'd wanna take the door with me!"

Was just sorting through my tags when I saw 'books' as a tag, which made me wanna update/leave a reminder of what I'm currently reading.

At the moment I'm re-reading my Noughts & Crosses trilogy by Malorie Blackman (at the mo I've nearly finished Knife Edge). Much love for the series. I started re-reading it because there's nothing more dull than spending an hour on the underground train to and from university twice a week just staring into blank space..and also cos I finally managed to get some money to buy the fourth book in the series, Double Cross.


Other stuff: Really annoyed at DHL for not delivering my stuff, they told my mum they'd come today on Thursday, but now I'm thinking they'll come today when neither of us will be in all day. <_< S'like I've already paid for the goods, they'll probably send it back to sender and just nark me off. Also planning on going to uni today, tomorrow and Sunday (though the uni bus from North London to Herts doesn't run on a Sunday, so I'll have to pay for a return train ticket. Despite my 16-25 Railway card expiring 3 months ago).

Fun times.

It amuses me how effed up my circadian rhythm* is. I have bad sleeping habits, srsly. And I wish my whole course was exam-only. I would much rather spend two hours writing in an exam than spend two months or whatever preparing for a 2000 word assignment. Fun times indeed... (though of course I know why it could never be exam-only, but still.)


In other news, I'm desperate to go out and buy some new clothes but time is not my friend right now, that'll have to go on the backburner. Or maybe not; I'm planning to write 500 words in the next 4 hours and amass at least 5 separate references to give me the 'day/afternoon off'. Man I procrastinate too much. >.< But isn't it amusing how other, more mundane stuff always seems to be more attractive than doing actual work?


* circadian rhythm is basically the body's biological clock and I can't stop using it in reference to sleeping ever since I learnt about it 4 weeks ago.

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Wanted to open a new LiveJournal account but I didn't want to incorporate a nickname I already have (as it's part of the username for my old LJ) .

sunsetsky , sunlitsky , moonlightsky , moonlitsky  and various names going by the theme of 'nature' were taken. Except for moonsetsky . So here I am.

And cos moonsetsky (apparently) seems to be a not-so common username, I've used it to sign up to a few other online services too, which is cool.

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On a scale of 1 to 10 of contentedness, right now I feel like a 7.5. If I was a less pessimistic person, I'd say an 8.

Swear something's up with that. 

Yesterday was weird. Not so much weird, just..kinda..unusual?

I mean, okay, so during lectures, the tutor (lecturer, whatever) obviously brings up ideas and questions the class to answer stuff etc. And like people just shout out the answers, obviously. Cos of that, and cos I'm quiet anyway, I don't usually participate unless the lecturer directs a question at me (in which case I panic, stumble over my words, bite my lips and hope for the best).

But yesterday we were learning about the different techniques used in data collection in research and the lecturer asked one girl if she knew what blind and double blind experiments were. She wasn't sure, so he was about to enlighten us with what it meant when I popped my hand up in the air and said "Can I try and explain?".

this is an unusual phenomenon with me as I never talk in class unless I have to and don't like being the centre of attention

So my lecturer got a bit excited & grinned (srsly..it amused me) and told me to go ahead. I tentatively said blind experiments are when the researcher knows what's going on but the participants don't and double blind is when both researcher and participants don't know what's going on, which helps with the reliablity and validity of controlled experiments.

Nothing unusual there. But like, when the lecturer told me I was right, someone at the back of the class started clapping, and then a few more people clapped too. It was like '...okay....I haven't found the cure of male pattern baldness or whatever, but thanks..!'.

It may not seem like a major deal, but for me it really made me happy; I attempted to answer a question, I got it right and I got an applause. Strange but amusing. And my happy day was amplified by the power of 2 when I got home and told my mum, who subsequently got a grin on her face, hugged me and said well done.

S'weird. But all I can say is, thank goodness I took psychology A-level at sixth form, that's the only reason I knew that answer.


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I have a feeling McDonald's put some sort of addictive agent in their chips and burgers. I haven't eaten from them in months, then all of a sudden I spend most of the week scoffing burgers and fries. And I have cravings for them again right now.


Damn them.

I'm excited for the most bizarre reason: I'm planning on making notes on drugs used in psychiatry. I'm currently reading Psychiatric Drugs Explained by David Healy and it's so intriguing. There's stuff about anti-psychotics, anti-depressants, drug use in children, side effects, history of drug use etc etc that fascinates me.

And worries me. My memory is like a sieve, information goes in one ear and out the other. And although there hasn't been any word on student nurses needing to know drugs used right now at this point in training, I'm sure it'll do me good to get learning now, for if I do ever qualify. So, if I don't get distracted doing other stuff tomorrow i.e. watching stuff on youtube/iplayer, sleeping, I'll be making brightly coloured notes and diagrams on A4 plain paper.

And I haven't done that since..........erm. I think since 2005/2006 when I was making revision notes for AS Psychology. Damn my memory's crap.

Today's lectures were kinda dull. Dull as in 'how many times is he gonna direct a question to the class and pause / thank you for going through 9/16 pages of a report when we don't even have a copy of it to make notes' etc. I'm possibly being pernickty on how I like to be taught in lessons... I admit though that I didn't understand what I learnt in the morning. Discrimination, inequality and all that I learnt for Health & Social Care A-Level, but that was 2 years back, my memory's crap.

I miss my old cohort. At least I got to know most of them and they got to know me a bit. I don't fit in at the moment. I'm not the type to fit in anywhere anyway, but still...To be honest, I just want to go out on placement, I've always preferred the practical side of nursing, the theory side is useful (of course) but it annoys me, maybe cos I've been studying since I was 5 or whatever, haven't taken a gap year (>.<) and just want to do stuff.


In other news:

Me: *getting off a bus from town, trying not to slip on the ice while holding an umbrella*
Girl I've Never Met Before: *gets off too and heads in the same direction as me* "Oh they said it would snow last night but it never did"
Me: *smile*
GINMB: "And they said it would snow tonight too, but it's just raining; I want it to snow so I don't have to go to work tomorrow"
Me: *smile* "Ah okay."

Girl I've Never Met Before then strikes a conversation with me while I was walking from one bus stop to another about how she was going to return a CD she bought for her parents. She said they didn't like it but she said she'd tell the staff at the shop that they'd already got that CD so that she'd have more chance of a refund. People don't usually strike conversations with other people they don't know. Right? :S Though it was a surreal but amusing moment. :)

Anyway, I don't know why, but I have a habit of attracting all sorts when I'm in public.

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Dunno, why, but I'm trying to differentiate between my usual ramblings and random ramblings in my tags... But then I came across wanting to go see Keane this month. And I realised the concert is in 5 days and there's more chance of me getting run over by a tractor (in London..) than me getting the money to see them. And the other annoying thing is I don't have lectures on Fridays, so I could've made it.

Bang goes that dilemma then. :-/


Though having said that, it was Friday the 13th, so maybe I've saved myself from an unlucky..fate or something.

The weather is really getting on my nerves. Currently it's about -1°C and I have stuff to do outside. I honestly just want to curl up in bed but I've got no food in the house, I need to buy food for my hamster Charlie and I indirectly promised I'd go and visit my elder cousin either last Saturday or today.

I'm still not even sure if it's spring or still winter.  I think it's the former, but the weather pattern feels really out of sync with the seasons..I just want it to be summer so I can go out without the whole winter regalia.

"There was a presentation at university that I was going to go to.. as I was about to leave my mum asked if I would take some pictures of her in the snow. I was already running late so I thought "Meh, why not?".

Anyway, after taking a few pics (and seeing the state of the ice on the road) I didn't feel like going to uni, and instead asked my mum if we could build a snowman. Hence the creation of Willy (my mum's suggestion, not mine!) the Funky Snowman.

I haven't built a snowman since I was about 4 or 5, so I was quite chuffed to freeze my fingers off doing this. :D"

As a kind of update, Willy the Funky Snowman kinda lived up to his name..Last night I peeked out of the living room window to see if he had melted or not, and I saw his carrot was no longer on his head but was somewhere else.

Me: "Oh the snowman's still outside..."
Mum: "Okay"
Me: "But his carrot's fallen off. The way it's fallen off, it looks like his d***"
Mum: "..."

My mum came home this evening and reported someone had actually purposefully stuck the carrot down there. Meh.

The Sims 3 is coming out in June this year (or March. Or sometime this year, I dunno), and I want it. I've been a huge fan of the whole Sim world, ever since I grabbed the original Sims about 4-5 years ago. But I'm sulking because:

a) I haven't got any money
b) The home computer has been broken for almost a year and I have no idea when mum will eventually get it fixed
c) The home computer isn't exactly a speed demon when it comes to playing computer games (i.e. it sometimes freezes up when I play The Sims 2 and bugs me about virtual memory limits)
d) No money
e) I have spent episodic moments of my life playing The Sims and The Sims 2 non-stop for over 24-hours at a time, which means maybe less time for assignments. :-/

Besides which, I have other stuff I need to buy which take priority over a game. But it looks soo pretty :( I'm fricking peed off.